Thursday, January 28, 2010

I hate moving...



Seriously. I really hate moving.
That's not even one room of stuff.

~Chris

Changes

Well boys and girls, it finally happened. I GOT A JOB!!!! I will be staying in Knoxville so that's good and I'll give more details about the job later. God has shown his faithfullness because until this morning I was not sure which of two offers to accept. Thanks to lots of prayer and talking to some people who I love and respect (thanks again!) I feel that I have made the right choice. I will either be starting the 8th or the 15th of February (pray for the 8th).

I will be moving...but just to another apartment in my complex! This one has washer and dryer connections!!!! It's a two story townhouse with a HUGE kitchen (compared to what I have now) and a porch off the back. It's going to suck moving everything but I think it will be worth it. I'll post pictures when we're done getting everything in.

This is really late but it snowed a little bit in Knoxville a few weeks ago, and it was Zeppelin's first snow! I took pictures and I know you all want to see them!

Love you guys!
I love this dog...even though he wouldn't go to the bathroom in the snow...
Eating the snow
Not quite sure what this white stuff is




Saturday, January 23, 2010

Searching

Lately I've been searching for lots of things. I've been searching for perspective, in my daily life as well as with my job. I've been searching for jobs(62 applications last week to be exact), which feels fruitless but is definitely starting to take off(Praise God)! I've also been searching for that ever-present still small voice I once heard so loud and clear.

It's amazing how quickly we are able to get wrapped up in life and forget why we're here. We are here to be God's light to the world. We are made to be in fellowship with God. The earth is only our temporary home and yet we allow ourselves to be so focused on the right now that we forget the ultimate purpose. I am blessed to be alive and breathing today and I should be rejoicing in this day and shine God's light to others.

I've become a dim light. I've allowed myself to get caught up in life and I have lost precious time to be a light to others. I know it I won't change overnight, but this is something I will work on fixing one day at a time. Because eternity is at stake. My new purpose in life is: Get to heaven and bring as many people with me as I can. I ask that you would pray for me as I rebegin this journey. Please pray that I will not become discouraged, and that I am able to beat the enemy as he throws obstacles in my way. Thanks!

On another front, I've been blessed to have multiple interviews lining up and am praying that God will make it evident where He wants me to be.

As I wrap up, I want to leave the lyrics of a song that is so amazing. I pray that I will be crucified with Christ.

Crucified With Christ: Phillips, Craig, and Dean
As I look back on what I thought was living
I'm amazed at the price I choose to pay
And to think I ignored what really mattered
Cause I thought the sacrifice would be too great
But when I finally reached the point of giving in
I found the cross was calling even then
And even though it took dying to survive
I've never felt so much alive.

For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live
Not I but Christ that lives within me
His Cross will never ask for more than I can give
For its not my strength but His
There's no greater sacrifice
For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live

As I hear the Savior call for daily dying
I will bow beneath the weight of Calvary
Let my hands surrender to His piercing purpose
That holds be to the cross but sets me free
I will glory in the power of the cross
The things I thought were gain I count as loss
And with His suffering I identify
And by His resurrection power I am alive

For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live
Not I but Christ that lives within me
His Cross will never ask for more than I can give
For its not my strength but His
There's no greater sacrifice
For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live

And I will offer all I have
So that His cross is not in vain
For I found to live is Christ
And to die is truly gain

Love you!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Frustrated

The past few weeks have been incredibly frustrating. I've had my entire life planned since I was a little girl. Graduate high school, go to college, meet the guy of my dreams, graduate, get the perfect job, and get married. I'm realizing more everyday that not only was this unrealistic but I was taking the wheel of my life into my own hands. I realize now that in order to repair what has been broken I must completely raise up my hands and hand this over to my sweet Savior. It is comforting to know that He will forgive me and help me as I begin to try to follow His plan. Trusting only in Him. I ask that you would pray for me during this time, that God's plan would be made clear and I would have no hesitation in following it.

I love you all!