Searching

Lately I've been searching for lots of things. I've been searching for perspective, in my daily life as well as with my job. I've been searching for jobs(62 applications last week to be exact), which feels fruitless but is definitely starting to take off(Praise God)! I've also been searching for that ever-present still small voice I once heard so loud and clear.

It's amazing how quickly we are able to get wrapped up in life and forget why we're here. We are here to be God's light to the world. We are made to be in fellowship with God. The earth is only our temporary home and yet we allow ourselves to be so focused on the right now that we forget the ultimate purpose. I am blessed to be alive and breathing today and I should be rejoicing in this day and shine God's light to others.

I've become a dim light. I've allowed myself to get caught up in life and I have lost precious time to be a light to others. I know it I won't change overnight, but this is something I will work on fixing one day at a time. Because eternity is at stake. My new purpose in life is: Get to heaven and bring as many people with me as I can. I ask that you would pray for me as I rebegin this journey. Please pray that I will not become discouraged, and that I am able to beat the enemy as he throws obstacles in my way. Thanks!

On another front, I've been blessed to have multiple interviews lining up and am praying that God will make it evident where He wants me to be.

As I wrap up, I want to leave the lyrics of a song that is so amazing. I pray that I will be crucified with Christ.

Crucified With Christ: Phillips, Craig, and Dean
As I look back on what I thought was living
I'm amazed at the price I choose to pay
And to think I ignored what really mattered
Cause I thought the sacrifice would be too great
But when I finally reached the point of giving in
I found the cross was calling even then
And even though it took dying to survive
I've never felt so much alive.

For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live
Not I but Christ that lives within me
His Cross will never ask for more than I can give
For its not my strength but His
There's no greater sacrifice
For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live

As I hear the Savior call for daily dying
I will bow beneath the weight of Calvary
Let my hands surrender to His piercing purpose
That holds be to the cross but sets me free
I will glory in the power of the cross
The things I thought were gain I count as loss
And with His suffering I identify
And by His resurrection power I am alive

For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live
Not I but Christ that lives within me
His Cross will never ask for more than I can give
For its not my strength but His
There's no greater sacrifice
For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live

And I will offer all I have
So that His cross is not in vain
For I found to live is Christ
And to die is truly gain

Love you!